Vacation tomorrow!

Hey there,

tomorrow you're going on your first vacation! You might be excited, perhaps that's why you fell asleep so early tonight. It was strange..usually you go to bed at around 7:30..but anyway you were tired this afternoon so your dad (who was working at home today) put you down at around 5pm, and you just kept sleeping, completing missing your bath and bedtime. I know never to wake a sleeping baby, so I let you sleep. Okay, I was actually sleeping too part of the time; I was feeling a bit drowsy from going to bed after midnight last night, so took a nap too at around 6. You did wake up at 8:30 for some milk, but got "milk drunk" and went right back into sleep land. So I wonder how tonight will be--will you sleep through the night (mostly) or will you get tired of sleeping at around 5am?
Aargh, it's already 10:20..I try to go to bed earlier (around 10) these days, since I know you're going to wake me up at least once in the middle of the night. It is so difficult to find time to do things! I feed you, play with you, then you take a nap and I try to do something...you have a habit of waking up just when I get into it. That's if I can clear my mind enough to remember and focus on what I want to do. You're precious, but taking care of you is fairly "relentless." That's the word my friend Shana used to describe this time. In fact, it feels a little less relentless than it did a month ago, but still fairly consuming.
I'm starting to look into childcare for you for September. I probably should have started working on this a long time ago, but it was hard to plan so far ahead--how could I research daycare for someone who wasn't born yet? In terms of daycare for infants, there is a shortage here in Brooklyn. The places I've called seem to be full and have a waiting list, and my fellow moms mostly report the same. I also have mixed feelings about leaving you somewhere where you wouldn't be held and attended to as much as you might need--you're just a baby, after all. So once I've looked into daycare a bit more, I will probably look into hiring a nanny on my own, or a nanny share.
Back to vacation (see how I have trouble keeping focused lately?), what I was trying to say is that we're going to Connecticut tomorrow. Well, they say that vacation with a baby isn't quite a vacation, just life at home held in another locale. I do have to say that it will be hard for it to feel like vacation when I'll have to pump milk every morning. (I do this so that we can give you a "dream feed" at around 10, helping you sleep through the night.) So I had to pack all your little clothes, a Pack and Play for you to sleep in, your favorite toy (a mirror!), your diapers..hope I don't forget anything.
Oh, there's a lot more to say, but I'll stop here and get some rest..

Sweet dreams,

your mom